Thursday, February 3, 2011

The Green Rocking Chair

While preparing for Emma's arrival Dad and Con bought us this great new gilder for the nursery. When it finally arrived I would sit and rock while thinking about how much our lives were about to change. Once she was born I spent many nights in that chair rocking her back to sleep. Then she grew older and we would read stories together as she was curled up in my lap.

Then the chair moved to Averie's room. Before she was born Emma and I would go in her room and turn out all of the lights. She would press the button on her new musical aquarium and dance around the room as I thought about how much our lives were about to change.

Lately, I've been sitting in that chair all by myself.  It's been my thinking chair, my "everything will be alright" chair, my peace.  I've been curling up in a ball while I think about my last little sister moving to greener pastures (TX) and how much our lives are about to change once again.
Allie and Danny are expecting their first little one in July in CO.  They are far away and I miss them and miss seeing my little sister grow in anticipation of her first little girl.  I've been there.  I want to share my "wisdom."  I offered to let her use the Green Rocking Chair for a while.  We figured we would get it to her when she comes out to her shower in May.  Turns out they picked it up yesterday instead because Danny's grandparents are heading there with a truck large enough to carry the Green Rocking Chair.
I was surprised at my reaction.  I was sad to see it go because I wasn't ready to be the mom without a rocking chair.  (My other two rocking chairs in my front yard were stolen so I am rock-less)  Was I ready to have two girls that are passed the stage of sitting in my lap, reading stories, or cuddling?  Turns out I didn't have a choice.  The Green Rocking Chair was heading to CO and I didn't have time to ponder or grieve. 

 It was a gift.  Now that I am on the other side I feel stronger.  I feel like the Green Rocking Chair served it's purpose and is now called to it's own new pasture.  I love the idea of Allie rocking in it while she thinks about how much her life is about to change.  Allie and Danny rocking it in with their new baby girl Finley.

  I know it's not good-bye, but see you later.  Perhaps the Green Rocking Chair will rock my grandbabies someday?  All I do know is it's time to ROCK doesn't wait:) 

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